Why I wonder
Do I torture myself as such
Reminding myself of the presece in his life
And the looming of whats to come

I could be a pro but no one will ever know
It really hurts right now but I cant figure out why
A work of art how both heart and mind agree and disagree at the same time
If only you knew how you hurt me
If only you can feel how I feel
The guilt and pain and never ending turmoil
If only if

Knowing I'll never have that kind of bond
You cant exactly avoid being green eyed about it

I guess you'll never know
How I feel
Sometimes it seems

I'm the only one who prioratise on us
When all the time you have something else on your mind

When everything abut the process you put to the last minute
Theres no room for error on my part isnt it
When I'm the one whoose to ensure everythings on track..

Do you not want this
I wonder sometimes
I really do