these are some novels yg ak sarankan korg bace...tp keep in mind yg ak ni suke citer2 yg ringan2 dn x menyerabutkan akal fikiran dan ketenteraman :P
dah name pun leisure reading kan..xkn nk cari cerita yg berserabot mengalah kan maslah negara?hmm...hope my list helps you spend saki baki cuti ni..
1. 5 tahun 5 bulan by hlovate
       yang ni ak dah bace ntah brape kali ntah..x bosan2...he3
2. ak kn novelis by syuhada
       yang ni hadiah rumate ak dkt kmj! sgt2 la terharu! syg korang!!!thanx..muahx3x
       cerita ini sgt lah best dan gempak!
3. bini ak tomboy ke? by sape ae? :P
        sorry la x ingat writer dy tp citer dy sgt sempoi!! ak bace time tunggu flight kt
        dlm arival hall aritu punye la khusyuk smpai staff airport tu pndg plek dkat ak
        gelak sorg2 n ak rase dy gelakkan tajuk novel tu r.. (malu seyh!)
4.  versus by hlovate
        yang ni plak i like very much sbb ade sket2 unsur tazkirah..bnyk menyedarkn
        ak yg kita ni masih ade bnyak ruang ntk berubah kpd yg lebih baik :)
5. anak dara menteri
         yang ni x bace ag but i think it has got to be interesting..he3

hope u guys consider this reading list.. :)
i wish u well
i wish u luck
i wish u love

to new beginings

i dont want to be mad
but i am
i dont want to be sad
but i cry
i dont want to hold grudges
but i do
i dont want to feel ungrateful
maybe not now but sometimes i will

becouse i am a human being with emotions
though i may not show it very often

i want to succeed
but i dont always do
i want to be happy
but sometimes it is just impossible
i want to be enemy-ridden
but can my anemies forgive me?

sometimes things you want are not for you to decide
life goes on no matter what
and time just keeps moving on....
let go of your past
enjoy your present and embrace your future

wish me well
wis me love
wish me luck
& a happy new year!

guess what! new year is just around the corner!!!! for both i mean.. thun hijrah selasa depan and thn masihi in a few weeks... so exited to get this year gone & done with... hahahaha...

result 10 dec kuar.. (gegegegegege...gigil thp gabra hati ak tunggu niyh)
but then, i had a talk with mom..
dy tanye again.."sure x nak masuk private amek medic? even not g amek dentistry ke, pharmacy ke? sure nk stay dkt stats?"

well..heres the thing..mak x taw & to think about it..ak pn x sure why i did what i did...sebenarnye..
balik dr umrah last may x silap..we were just in time nak update UPU
b4 going sure la my application sumeny science stream..
i applied for medic, biotech, dentistry, pharmacy, engineering (UTHM...sje2 letak sbb kowt2 dapat..dekat gile!) and TESL (yang ni sbb ak overconfident comfirm ble skor kalo dpt..)
but then, when i returned...ak tukar lapan2 jd stats..
weired right! i had all my mind and heart set on it..and there was no turning back! thas for sure..
so maybe there's a reason to be taking this..
even if pak long was soo davistatingly discouraging me last raya..

but then there are times when i do feel sad that i had to let go of the dream that i had when i was little..i used to play make belife in the back seat of that old grey saga all the way from KL to BP
i used to imagined that when i grow up, i would buy a building where the ground floor would be my clinic, the 2nd floor my mums boutique nad the3rd my sis's law firm..
but hey! look where that has dream has taken me so far!
i'm no where near to even the slightest chance of opening a clinic (how can i without having MBBS right?) my sis has a law degree but she cant practice, and becouse of the economy even mum's business is a bit downer...
REALITY SUCKS!

so my new year resolution is to accept and improve my reality...
no more miss dreamy (being 20 ia all about facing the truth for me!)

cuaknye sal result!!gagagagagga (@_@)

sometimes the wall you built to keep ypu from getting hurt, it keeps you from feelig thr joy

pillow talk

walking down this road again
seeing old faces again
scars hurting all over again

rain is still pouring
all seems gray now
even the faintest of a light can not be seen

& then i saw you
like a sun you shined
lighting up my days
giving me warmth when it felt cold

like the moon you shone
lighting up my nights
preventing me from bursting into flames

you are just what i need
my perfect prescription
my turniquet

6 degrees connection

ha....tgh hjn selebat-lebat alam td ramai la plak yg menghulurkan bantuan kecemasan (gile hyperbola!) dkt ak bagi mghilangkan kebosanan yg dah tahap x ingat sepanjang hari ni...
dtg serentak dn bertubi plak tu...
mane komen dt wallnye, mane yg chatnye, msg lg, ym, lg..sume dilakukan smbil tgh ckp dkt fon niyh..
so kalau ade mane2 pihak yg ak trlmbt reply, or ak reply bnda yg x msuk akal ker...
tersusun sepulah jari ak untk memohon maaf seikhlas hati..
over xcited ak sbb korang sume ingat dkt ak lg..kih3..
mcm2 ragam korag ak dpt taw..ha3
ade yg br nk stat xam, ade yg tinggal ag 2 or 3 papers jek, ade yg tgh tunggu result (ak r tu! ngeee...tkot mak!!!) ade yg dh hbs tgh tun ggu nk further, ygh tgh mati kutu bosan cuti (mcm ak gak) pn ade...
to all my frenz...may sucess be with you in anything you do, no matter where you are.. :)

a little less complicated

im on holiday..
i have nothing going on kecuali jage kedai mak la...
nothing interesting is hapening & my life is less complicated baru-baru ni..konklusinya my life right now is BOOORIIIINGGG...
honestly is...and my iaginations blocked, i cant think of anything interesting write about..ok, thats a lie, ideas i have..its the words to describe those ideas that i dont have... ARGHHHH!!! the frustration!
and now im stuck with a timetable every monday through saturday im stuck here in my mom shop...daont get me wrong, i do enjoy doing this work, but at the same time it deprives me from the time i can use to hit the racks...
gian gile nak shopping!!!!
so again, in conclusiaon, it os just that i am sooo bored.... HELP! ANYONE?

conclusion 4 2nite

assalamualaikum...
hahaha....its 1.44 am n im still not sleeping..
maybe in a little while...

really didn't want to be alone tonight ...
but what can i do...its study week...
which means no more class until the end of semester, which means that all my roomies blek rumah dyorg...
apekn daya bp-machang bkn mcm parit raja-summit..(hehehe)
nk hilgkn rase lonely so bwatpe?
after presentation research td (ALHAMDUILLAH! brjln dgn lancar n akhirnya lps sudah suatu tugasan yg sgt berat)
me, wani, mida nuryn n yani went to KFC
konon nk celebrate hbs classes..haha
sanggup meredah panas terik tgh hari untuk seketul ayam goreng hahaha
when was d last time i ate at KFC?
rase mcm dh lame gile...
can't seem to remember d details..haha
thats probably 4 da best anyways..

then ronda tmn wani cari toothbrush n ronda2 sket then tros blek...
rehat...then mlm join ila n shella g food court bwh pulak..
I WAS REALLY IN DESPRATE NEED OF A COMPANION hahahaha
mkn mee hoon sup n air kelapa..
the drink was magnificent however, x sangka plak dpt sup utara...n i was thinking of sumthing like sup dkt kedai S10 dkt peserai...
hmmmm..... xde rezeki...maybe next time im back in town pi pekena la... hehehe

came back, still felt alone so watched SALT (yg jolie belakon uh...) n Resident Evil 5 ( sumpah suka grafik dy!) so now, after 2 movies, im lying down in front of my lappy n blogging...hehehe..

guess im feeling a little better..
well except 4 da headache n runny nose la...(which have probabbly gotten worst since i just coudn't resist a triple scoop vanila ice cream after dinner td.. hahaha..
swollowed down tons of panadol already this week, hoping things will turn for the better soon =)

tomorows plans:
1.continue TITAS
2.washing machine!
3.wash my ever so lovely everlast sneakers (hancor mase g kb ri tu...kene hujan n lopak!)
3. start packing my stuff ntuk hjg sem (mida dah stat dah td kowt!)
4.get some more rest in hopes getting a little more healthier..haha

hmmm.bnyk agenda niyh... i like!!=)
hopefuly brjln lncr..nowing me, who really likes to sleep...
lalalalalalala....=P

words of wisdom to self:
life goes on
every single day
hatred is just a waste of time
tears is a sign of weakness
envy just makes u miss all da pretty things in life
time waits for no one
move on & try to catch up
run if u have to
when ur tired, u walk,
unable to, then crawl
never stop!
becouse when life gives u lemmons
u make lemmonade
learn from d past
treassure d present n anticipate d future
THAT IS HOW I PLAN TO LIVE MY LIFE

can i make it?
JUST WAIT N SEE (or read =P)
wish me luck!
wish me well!
wish me love!

sincerely,
u know who i am(hahaha...wekk!!) ^^,

conclusion 4 tonight

I GIVE UP
HE'S RITE
i dont know alot of things going on in his life now
i may not even know WHO he is anymore
not like i can say no rite?
& if he didnt tell me i would not have to know k...

NOTE to HIM:
just live up to all the PROMISSES YOU made to YOURSELF
dn jgn sia2kn ape yg ko ade..
the worst thing a person could do is let himself down..
kecewakan org lain xpe lg, bila kecewakn diri sendiri..hmmm

i feel alone
no one understands me, not even myself

i feel sad
no metter how much i cry, the sadness still remains
n thers no one to console me

i feel hurt
no one is to blame but myself for that

i feel sick
no medicine can cure me n i have lost the will to get better

i feel scared
no one can protect me from whai i fear

i feel pain
no one can relieve me from it

y must it disturb me
y must it follow me
y must it hurt me
y me?

its haunting me
its making me dpressed
its making me lonely
its hurting me
its taking over me

i know what it is
i know what it wants
it wants me
i know
im fighting
but i cant fight 4eva

thats y im writing now
while im still sane
so that at least
some time
somewhere
in the near or far future
someone will know
that i once lived as myself

wish me well...

lets play in the rain 2gether someday..
it will b fun!
im sure of it.. :)

its complicated, life's like that

korg suka hujan x?
ak suke...dr dulu teringin nk pegang payung then diri dlm hujan...
suke rasa titik2 hujan yg jatuh ke bumi...bau hujan yg baru turun bile kene pd rumput dn tnh..1 perasaan yg unik...
dah lame x bwat, blek kelantan nnt nk bwat skali..
kt bp x ble nk bwat..mmpus kene leter dgn mak..

hahahahahahahaha..
knp ak suka nk bwat mcm tu?
sbb lps hujan mungkin ada pelangi...
pelangi kn lawa...mcm2 kale ade...
pd ak, hjn tu menenamgkan dn pelangi itu mmbwa kebahagiaan
btol...x caye try la...

kehidupan ni pun mcm tu jugak...ble mangalami kesusahan, kte xkn nmpk hikmah yg ade disebalaiknya..
mcm hjn..kn mmbasahi bumi dn bg tumbuhan hidup
ble berlalunya hujan, kita dihadiahkn dgn pelangi ats kesabarn kite menunggu hjn berhenti..keindahan yg mmbawa senyuman pd muka knk2 dn sesape yg melihatnya.

pelangi ni mcm cinta (pd pndpt sy la)
bwk kebahagiaan, senyuman, bwat kita rase semua penderitaan kita b4 this berbaloi..
tp sebenarnya, spt pelangi, cinta x mmpu untk ak miliki
ak boleh tngkap gmbr pelangi, lukiskn keindahan pelangi, even ceritakan pd org lain keindahannye, tp ak sendiri x dpt nk memilikinya betol?

hahaha....
buku ak yg ke-4 tamat hari ini..
pd bulan ke-4 sjk ia bermula, x smpt smpai 4 bln pown, tp dh msk bln yg ke-4 la..
hahahaha...

esk ak mula buku baru...mula dgn perjalanan balik ke kelantan...jam 8 mlm...

of ice cold mountains, suuny deserts and and melting ice cream

of ice cold mountains, sunny dessert and melting ice cream
of all of which
i love you the most

of sunny side eggs, romantic novels and evening strolls,
in life
i appriciate you the most

of reading books, surfing the net and playing puzzles
evry minute, every day, every passing second
i enjoy being with you the most

of the cold that comes along with the rain, dull textbooks and sad love songs
of all of which
i hate fighting with you the most

of overcooked eggs, choclate  and running
knowing you r keeping secrets from me
im tormented the most

of tidying my room, unscedualed meetings and unexpected events
loosing you
can really make me cry

hahahaha......sje nk bwat karya...dh lame x memgarang...
until next time
enjoy!
;)

n0 l0nger a new place

Alm0st a m0nth n0w in uitm machang stdying cs221. Bnyk blaja bnda bru n bnyk sedr bnyk juga yg sy trlupa dn perlu dingt kmbali. So far dh amek 3 quiz.. Bnda yg plek, bnda yg sy rase sy minat, mrkh lbyh rndh brbnding sbjek yg sy anggap sukar. Xkesah la. Yg pntg, sy sgt brsmgt nk dpt dekan!! Esk ada quiz stat n prob.. Ngee~ takot! Wish me luck, wish me well, wish me love:p

cant help fallin in love wth you

wise men said
0nly fools rush in
bt i cnt help fallin in love wth u..

Take my hand,
take my whole life tu,
for i cant help
fallin in love wth you

like d river flows
2 d sea, so it goes
s0me things r meant 2 be

#lyric lilo n stich d muvie

CS221 part 1 group CSB1CA timetable

course taken this semester:

STA 400- fundamental of computer problem solving
CTU 551- islam n asian civilization
HBU 111- national kesatria 1
MAT 441- calcullus 11
STA 400- probability n statistics
STA 420- fundamental of research

weekly timetable

Sunday
8.00-9.50      STA 400
10.00-12.50  CSC 415
2.10-4.00      MAT 441

Monday
8.00-9.50     STA 420
12.00-1.50   MAT 441

Tuesday
8.00-9.50     STA 400
12.00-1.50   CSC 415
4.10-6.00     CTU 551

Thursday
8.00-9.50     MAT 441
2.10-4.00     STA  420

not so new place but still new challenges

ok...da msk 3rd week at UiTM Machang..  I think i can finally accustomed my self to d enviroment..though many of my comrades yg x dpt nk biasakn diri dgn d fud here (isu besar rupanya slerra mkn kt cni.. hmm :P), surprisingly, ak ske r makann cni sbb xde yg pedas... ;) (note..ak sbnrnya suka mkn pds tp sbb gastrik, my tummy can't take it anymore..sob2)

ok2..enough about food..though i have to say..benjo dy sgt!10x sedap! heaven gle.....

yesterday, ak berjaya mndftarkan diri dlm sistem on9 UiTm, bru sat td ak check..server dy dh down blek...
so bg mane2 student cs221 yg brtindak cpt ats msg ak meminta anda mndftrkn diri semlm, tahniah kpd anda!
bg yg kurg brnasib baek..cube! cube! dn troskn mencube!
my room has also become d administrative office for cs221 yesterday..al maklum...batch rep + ada broadband...
berumpu bdk2 uh dtg..xpe2..ak ikhlas tlg korg...insya-Allah
so my jadual has also changed...
quite packed compared to b4..plus now all my classes start at 8..sob2x (xde can oversleep ag + frequency super savers juga kmungkinn perlu dikuragkn...sob10x) :(
xpe2...yg pnting..ak da dpt  course yg ak minat..
masalah2 laen sprt jaoh dr mereka yg kusayangi, facilities yg x up to date n etc..perlu ak ketepikn..
demi cita2 ku..hahahaha!
tonight ada meeting dgn comobista (comunity of bachelor statistik)
hmm...ape agknya yg bakal dibincgkn?
ade sket mls nk g sbnrnya..tp redha jek la...
ok...so rasenya washing machine uh dh siap kowt..so im off to jemur my baju2...

until next time ;)

new places, new challenges..

okay...so today is da 4th of july... most of my frenz dftr uni ari ni including Mr. M.
for me, its already been a week since i'm called a university student..
i've made quite a few friends n thanx to my ability to mencapap ats stage...aku dpt berkenalan dgn beberapa org seniors..
tomorrow my classes begins
so wish me luck k..
n to those yg baru jek nk enjejakkan kaki ke uni..all da best to all of you
it may seem tough, it may seem rough
tp faci tu nk bg korg biase dgn enviromrnt baru..

next, nak storey psl UiTM Machang n CS221
my campus ni 55km dr kota bahru..dy xde bndar..ada pekan jek...they don't even have maybank..
smlm outing g i pekan machang though undercivilized(kuang asam punya ayt ni)
tp dy ada flee market..
sronok tgk brg2 murah kat situ..
they have everything,
from fish n veges, clothes, shoes, bags n even h/phones
ak kuar dgn member baru..bdk IS (information system)
tua 1 thn tp kamcing la gak
n her adik agkat..
dyorg shopping sakan tp ak segan2 :P
next time ak outing siap la ko bndr Machang..habis sume ak borong
dlm kampus ak  stay dkt THO  4/218
my kolej kdiaman ats bukit..bt 4 girls..kolej ni plg dekat dgn academic building
roomies 2 local n 1 kedah
smlm we had fun korek farah (1 of my roomies) punye pakwe storey..
so far we know he lives in pengkalan cepa, studies in pahang n farah sometimes contact her future brother in law..
my roomies also forced me to let them see a pix of Mr. M
my roomie yg kedah kate..ble tahan.. dy suka gmbr skema (passport) Mr. M
what????? dlm bebnyak gmbr yg dy selongkar dlm my fon..gmbr tu yg bunyi..
btw..sume ni di berlaku krn one time ni Mr. M call time ak g mandi
rite..CS 221 cume ada 28 people n only 2 of which r boys..
mcm yg ak kata di mrate-rata tmpt sblm ni..
ak x dpt trime kenyataan...!!
nk cuci mata pun x lepas..
my course have been extended to 7 semesters
asal ini perlu berlaku pd batch ak???!
i'll be moving to kampus kota bahru on d 3rd semester.. can't wait!!
i need shopping malls (confession of a shoppoholic)

finally mushy stuff
when were used to being close to each other..rase plek bila berjahan kn..
or maybe its jus becouse ak x biase dgn long distance relationship..
bnyk bnda yg ak risaukn...
like will d same thing that happen in matrix happen again at UiTM?
i hope not..
i want to succeed n i want him to succeed
i want us to succeed... ( wah! mndlm mksd)
can we make it?
can we b faithful for 3 whole years?
can we stay madly in love (?????) with each other n still mnjaga kewarasan akal?
i sure damn hope so..
thers still something i want to ask him..bt...maybe l8ter

until next time:)

mixed emotions

ahhhhh sudah.......
jiwa kacau den sekarang ni..
mlm ni nak gerak gi machang...
sy bakal jd mek klate celup...
3 thn... di sana..
melanjutkan pelajaran...
org kate menuntut ilmu biar sampai ke negeri china
(knp org dlu2 gne 'negeri'? bkn negara ke? ke sy yg slh ingat? ape2 ajela..)
atas sebab2 di atas..sy sgt xcited nak pegi...

da lame dkt rmh..syok tu...
xde bwat pe keje sngt..rilex jek...
sape x nak
sana nnt kene struggle..
ag2 orientasi..
sudah dpt ku bygkn kepenatan yg di nntikn..
ats sebab2 ini pula sy rasa berat bontot nak pegi....

sy ank bongsu dlm famly..
dlm slang kampar..anak bontot..
(eeee! plek gile gelaran)
so..lumrah ank bongsu mestila manja n susah nk berpisah dgn org trsygx kira la yg sejak azali dh famly o yg baru2 jek join famly ktorg
(ehem2! sket la plak tekak ni..sesapa ada strepsil?)
ats sebab2 ini pula sy rase berat hati nak pegi...

hati dn bontot berat..hanya akal yg ringan nak g machang..
akal..ko g sendiri bole?
bontot dgn hati stay kt rmh
ada ke patut bekas plajar KMJ jurusan hayat berfikir sedemikian..
buat malu mentor je jd lecturer bio..
huhuhu...

neway...kite perlu rasional dlm bwt keputusan rite?
masalah hati bole ditangani..jgn smpai mase dpn tergadai

3 thn bkn mase yg lame..all i have to do is study hard..really hard
dptkn result yg gempak..i mean really gempak like 4.00 punye gempak
then..blek cni dn jdkn result tu hadiah plg manis untk org4x tersayang
(org4x maksudnya ada 4 org ke? u decide)

konklusinya..i will try my best to succeed for me n also for you
i hope you do d same..

akhir kate..hopefully kat sane sempat nak tell you about UiTM Machang n CS221
take care..luv you n wassalamualaikum.. ;)

M did something really sweet 4 me today..(or was it yesterday? :P)
M played d game for 1 n 1/2 hours just to get d result right!
aww...so sweet..
ak da marah diri ak..ak da kate..
jgn trmakan kate..
M mmg mulut tebu
otak kate benci
hati kate suka
mane 1 ni???
i'm at war...
bkn dgn M
tp dgn diri sendiri
sama ada untk percaya dn ambil risiko yg hati ak bakal terluka
atau pura2 x percaya dn ambil risiko yg M akn pergi dn hati ak akn tetap terluka..
so either way i'll end up with a broken heart..
salah! 1/2 a broken heart
hmmmmmm

stupid!5x girl

today....I FEEL LIKE SHIT
sifat rasional ak da lame melarikn diri dr ak...
mungkin dy merajuk sbb ak amek keputusan yg ak sendiri taw akn memakn diri ak sendiri x lama lg...
I FEEL LIKE DOING SOMETHING STUPID!!!
mcm mase form 2 dulu tu...
tp a x nk ulg kesilapan tu lagi
rasa brsalah pd mak lps melakukannye terlampau berat untuk ak tampung..
none the less..
itulah yg ak rase skrg...
kelengkapan sume siap sedia jek..tinggal ak nk bwat ke x nak jek..
other than my mum..ada ke yg kisah kalo ak ulg kesilapan tu lg pun?
this time..kalo ak bwat lg prangai lama tu..
i'll have to make sure that i don't come back rite? kalau x sia2 jek
but ak masih ingat pd yg berkuasa..
so mcmne nk mghilgkn kebengangan ini?
can anyone help?

10 things

10 bnda yg anda perlu tahu tntg saya adalah:

1. Saya selalu menipu. compulsive liar..bg sy, ianya memudah kan kehidupan..sy menganggap penipuan sy sbg kebenaran sy. namun jika sy telah buka pintu hati sy untk anda dn mmberi kebenaran yg sepenuhnya kpd anda, sy mengharapkan yg sama dr anda juga.. :)
2. sy tidak suka org lain taw perasaan sy yg sebenar. sy sering mengamalkn (1.) untuk mengelakkan (2.)
3. sy seorang antichoc. maknanya..sy x suka choclate. pelik bg seorg prempuan tp bnar! so jgn ng ape2 yg brasaskn chocalate..plz..namun begitu..kalau org yg sy suka/minat/syg yg bg.. sy akn menghabiskannya walaupun sy hanya mampu mkn 1 piece shj sehari
4. sy x suka pergaduhan x kirala dgn kwn, rakan, teman, rumate, hausemat, boyfriend, girlfriend (eh?). sbb itulah sy berpegang pd (1.) dn (2.)..sy lebih rela sakit seorang menahan rase dr brgaduh dn merosakkan sesuatu perhubungan. sy lg suka menurut printah dr mengarah kalau dlm perrsonal life la..krn sy x suka prgaduahan sy jd seorng yg suke pndam perasaan dn telah melahirkan suatu personaliti yg sy beri nama lengai.( sila rujuk 8.)
5. sy x ada cinta pertama.. :( bukan brmakna sy blom prnah brcinta..cuma cnta prtama sy da xde..di tmpt perbaringannya yg kekal sy brjanji xkn menyintai sesiape lg kecuali suami sy..so, smpai skrg...cintaku ntk suamiku...crush/org trsyng..yg tu ramai la..sy hanya mampu beri 1/2 hatiku pd mereka..lg separuh kalau di antara mereka menikahi sy la..x salah kn?
6. bnda yg sy plg takot dlm dunia ini adalah jika sy lupa pd org yg sy syg..x kira muka, perangai, habbit, kesukaan dn etc. sy selalu ditinggalkan..sy dah biasa kesunyian..dn sy selalu dilupakan..tp jarang skali sy melupakan..
7. saya seringkali meminta maaf. sy suka minta maaf sbb boleh mengelakkan (4.)
8. sy lengai pd luaran. lengai bermaksud innert.innert brmaksud walau ape yg anda bwat pd sy...secara emosinya anda xkn dpt lihat kesannya di muka sy..( definisi ini adlah brdasarkan kamus hidup saya, harap maklum) personaliti ini adlah hasil dari (1.), (2.), (4.) dan (5.)
9. sy x suka mengkritik kerja org. sy x reti. instead sy bg cdgn.ini krn (1.), (2.) dan (4.) so, i dont critisize, i give suggestion. lebyh mmbina kan?
10. hobi sy d masa lapang ialah mengobserve human behavior. sy suka mengkaji perangai dn perasaan org lain apabila menghadapi sesuatu keadaan. sy juga suka mengingati little details in sumones life seperti gelaranya mase kecil, apa yg mmbwatknnya berasa malu, seyh, cemburu n etc.

inilah sifat white umbrella in summory. :)

benar atau tidak, u decide... ;)

selamat berkenalan :P

ak dy dn yuna

sepanjag prkenalan ke-2 kami...
yuna was our common intrest..
lagu2nya jd lagu2 kami..
bunyi mcm cliche...tapi itulh yg trjadi..
penutup lagu perkenalan kami juga dari yuna..
dy yg kata..bkn sy... ;p

Cinta Sempurna Yuna
Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan
Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
tak mampu tuk memnaggung sebuah cinta sempurna
Darimu
Darimu ohhh
Darimu ohhhh
Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirmu
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan
Ohhh
Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
Tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu
Darimu ohhh
Darimu ohhhh

krn sy xkn berkata tidak pd awak.

i dedicate this song to *tut*
haha..kene censored la..sorie...
sumwhere, sumhow..deep inside...i know yg  *tut*  taw lagu ni untk dy..

Evanescence - Good Enough
Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me
cause I can't hold on to anything this good
enough
am I good enough
for you to love me too?

so take care what you ask of me
cause I can't say no

di sebalik nama 'white umbrella'

walaupun dh ramai yg tau cerita 'white umbrella'
di sebabkn kesejukn dlm van d whole day ari ni.. n hjan yg x henti2..rasanya ak nk citer la pasal white umbrella ni

ok..kte cter lu d story..then ak g tau knp ak pilih name ni k?
ada seorg gadis pelajar high school yg ke skola setiap hari menaiki komuter..
bg pnduduk jepun..perkara ini sgt normal...
pd sutu hari, dlm perjalanan ke stesen komuter, gadis itu trnmpk sekaki payung putih yg dijual di sebuah kdai di tepi jln i2...
warna putihnya yg berseri-seri i2 tlh memikt hati gadis trsebt
namun, ketika i2 duitnya tidak mencukupi  untk mmbeli payung tersebut..
apabila pulg dia cuba meyakinkan neneknya untuk mmbenarkannya untuk mmbeli payung tersebut..
lalu neneknya berkata, kalua mahukn sesuatu kita perlulah berusaha, kumpulkan majalah dn surat khabar lama di belakang, jualkan dn hasilnya boleh lah digunakan untuk mmbeli payung tersebut...
lalu gadis itu brusaha keras... bkn shj surat khabar, dn majalah di rumhnya..malah dy turut meminta dr jiran2nya...
akhirnya setelah berpenat lelah mengumpulkan duit....dy akhirnya berjaya mengumpulkan amount yg diperlukan..
keesokan harinya...dgn penuh semangat dy ke kedai yg mnjual payung trsebut...
dy ke kaunter lalu meminta payung putih yg di lihatnya semalam...lalu pnjaga kedai itu pun ber kata
maaf lah dik..out of stock..cuba lagi minggu dpn ya..
keciwa tidak terhingga..namun dy blom berputus asa..

genap seminggu dy mncuba nasibnya sekali lagi..
kali ini akhirnya di berjaya memiliki apa yg di hajati...
payung putih i2 di bawa dgn penuh hati2
gadis i2 mmbawanya ke mana shj...

setelah setahun payung i2 brkhidmat untuk gadis i2...
 warnaya kini tidak seputih dahulu..
dn gadis i2 tidak lagi mmbawanya ke mana2
payung i2 hanya ditinggalkan di rumah di suatu sudut tnpa di hiraukan kewujudannya
payung i2 brase trsisih..sedih..sunyi..
payung i2 masih lagi ingin brsama gadis i2
masih lg mahu melindungi gds i2 dr hjn dn panas..
pyung putih i2 tidk henti2 brharap yg gds i2 akn mmbawanya keluar brsiar-siar sprt dahulu...
ia berharap..berharap...dn terus berharap...

pd suatu hari..
impian payung i2 di makbulkan...
gadis itu tlh mmbawanya ke taman rekreasi..
payung i2 bukan berasa suka, bukn berasa ceria..
ia berasa bahagia krn masih boleh berkhidmat untk tuannya
namun...disangak panas hingga ke ptg..rupanya hjn di tgh hari..
(he!3x berkaitan la plak..)
gadis i2 tlh meninggalkn payung putihnya di suatu kerusi di taman tema trsbt...
payung i2 mula panik.... ia x mahu brpisah dgn gds i2...
nsb baek ada seorg pemuda yg perasan lalu mengambil payung putih dn mengejar gadis i2 un tk memulgknnya pd gadis i2..
di sbbkn insiden ini...gds dn pemuda i2 mula berkawan baek...
tidak lama kemudian mereka pun brpasangan..
namun insiden payung putih i2 ditinggalkan sering berulang..
dn setiap kali ada shj yg memulgknnya kpd gadis i2..
gds i2 brkata...
ish! ko ni asik dtg blek jek..asal susah sgt nk buangkan ko !?

pd suatu ptg...gadis i2 ingin ke kelas tmbahan..
dy mencapai payung putih tersebut dn bergegas pergi...
setelah kelas i2 tamat...
dilihatnya hujan sudah hampir turun..
dy mencari2 pyg putih dlm begnya namun x ditemui..
gds i2 terpaksa meredahi hjn ke stesen komuter..
dy mncari payung i2 di merata tmpat namun tidak jua ditemui..

sbnrnya gadis i2 secara tidak sgj kali ini tlh tertinggalkan pyg i2 di bwh seat komuter...
seorg pengemis tlh mengambilnya dn mnjadikannnya bummbung rumahnya yg diperbuat dr kotak di tepi jln..
walaupun payung i2 sedih krn brpisah dgn gds i2..dy redha dn bersyukur krn masih boleh berkhidmat untuk manusia...

baeklah kwn2 i2 lah ceritanya......
jd knp ak pilih cerit in?
1. payung: bwat ak nk jd manusia yg brsifat spt payung tu...yg sentisa berkorban dn berkhidmat untuk org laen dgn ikhlas dn tanpa mgharapkan apa2 balasan ( a bit far fetched..but ak akn cube)
2. warna putih: suci, cinta sejati, cinta ibu, kwan setia, semua perkara ini berkaitan dgn warna putih I LIKE...!!!
3. hujan: mensucikan bumi (again suci...), mmberi air kpd manusiadn tumbuhan ..menurunkan suhu bumi, dn bile tgk hjn turun..ak rase lonely, rase trtunggu-tunggu sang mentari or sumone..(entah sape entah) walaupun perasaanya sedih..tapi ak ske.. mcm ada sket feeling menunggu cinta sejati (ewah ayt ak... x menahan)

he!3x thats all from me.. kalau sudi silalah komen ya...ak nak tau feedback korg...

REVIEW PART 2: 'aku kan novelis' by nurul syuhaida

smbg citer td... ok...spt apa yg ble kte tafsir dr review sblm ni...safi mmmg mmpunyai rakan2 karib yg sering dihantui masalah CHENTA...jd safilah tmpt mereka mangadu nasib dn memohon nasihat..... da mcm marriege consultanta da kerja sambilan si safi ni (ae slah...tu kerja sambilan ak la.... tertukar suda...)

slps berjaya menyatukan psgn romeo juliet tu...si helmi merasakan dirinya 'cupid' (ha!3x gle prasan)
dy berasa hidup ini penuh ironi dn ingin mmbantu semua org mncari chenta sejati.. (kah!3)
so mndgrkan statement tu...safi dpt satu idea gila... dgn bantuan helmi...dy berharap dpt mmbwatkan hisham sdar betapa pntingnya iza dlm hidupnya... lalu disuakan idea i2 kpd helmi dmn mendapt respond yg baek dr jejaka tinggi lampai itu namun bila diajukan kpd iza...gadis i2 menolak proposal i2 mentah2... niat baek... tapi dirasakn kerja gila di mata iza... mcmla iza xde kerja laen nk bwat dr bwat hisham jeles (ye ke?)
tapi lama2 kelamaan .idea i2 mkn ble diterima akal especially bila si hisham tlh menipu iza bulat2. mcni citernye..... hisham prnah janji nk buka syarikat dgn iza... tapi dy g tau iza x jd coz kene jd sleeping partner dkat company pkcik dy.... tapi disebabkan mulut celupar seorg offismate dyorg ni...terkantoi la bahawasenye sbnrnya si hisham ni nak p buka syarikat dgn eliz... (minah hot kerja kt kedutaan yg ak cter dlu tu... ingat x?)
kan ke pghiantaan kelas pertama tu namanya? kalo ak da lama ak sembelih mamat tu... tapi minah ni tramat loa chenta pd hisyam sampai x sanggup nk benci... dpt takat marah jek (ak PAHAM perasaan ni...mmg ble berlaku...) hmm.... so lps memastikan fakta trsebut dgn curi slongkar laci  hisham.. pd jam 12.15 tgh mlm iza mmecut ke kedai mamak untuk mengisi perut yg sudah meronta minta diisi.. (jeng3... sesuatu bakal berlaku)

 alamak...ak lupa nk citer ada skali ni mase iza x keruan pkir mslah eliz, hisham dn dirinya...prnah si safi ajak kuar g bli brg dapur..mase tu la trserempak dgn helmi seraya mmprkenalkan mereka berdua kerana mengikut teori safi... dgn mewujudkan hero baru dlm hidup heroin....heroin akn dpt melupakan hero yg lama... (ak stuju 100% disahkan bnar eventhough bunyi nya agak kejam...it honestly is d best n fastest way meyh..) k... so mlm tu di kedai mamak tu...iza trserempak dgn helmi kembali....mengetahi yg sofi sudhpn mnceritakan prihal dirinya pd helmi tnpa segan silu dy pun mnceritakan prkara yg tlh brlaku... dn lelaki i2 pun menawarkan khidmatnya sbg cupid... dgn emosinya....iza pun bersetuju..... so esoknya bermula lah plan mereka...
lama kelamaan si helmi ni mula menaruh hati pd iza..

k...sampai sini dlu la... t bosan2 ak smbg ag... pnt a...nk berfacebook plak... hahaha! ;P

REVEIW PART 1: ak kan novelis by nurul syahida

hai!!!! susah tol nk buang tebiat...ae salah... TABIAT buruk ak ni la....

sejak dr dlu lg ak mmg ske mnceritakan semula bnda2 yg ak bace mahupun tonton..

b4 ada blog ni ak citer kt kgkwn ak yg sudi dgr... da ada blog sng sket...x yah buang air liur

so in d midst of xam week ni pun sempat lg la ak bace novel chenta....

bkn pe...bkn x sdar next week ada ag xam cume ble org bg present kita kene hargai kn?? n what better way then tu bace dpn dyorg...

ye...ak kni mmbaca novel pmberian rumateku untuk hari jadi yg ke-19

cayok la korg...citer ni sgt gempak!!! tgk la sape yg trgila-gila nk beli novel ni lps 1st time bace kt remaja... (ae..ak msk bakul angkat sendri.... x pnt ke? he!3 xpe2 baru pas pekene maggi goreng + plus telor mata 1/2 msk yg superb dkt kafe umi)
ok...so back to d topic... novel yg ak bace ni sgt5x comel n seperti novel2 laen yg ak minati... plot dy ringan n sesuai untk leasure reading...yup! i like it VERY MUCH...

ia mengisahkan seorg novelis brnama SAFI yg tlhpn menerbitkn 5 novel chenta yg laris di pasaran walaupun dirinya sendiri x prnah brchenta..( hmm... menarik!)
dy mnganggap dirinya sbg 1st class observer (aik! mcm prnah dgr ayt ni...sal dy tiru ayt ak??)
n mngconvertkan pe yg dy obseve kpd hasil karya novel2 yg kononya agung i2...namun slps menerbitkan 5 novelnya i2...dy tlh menemui writer's block atau dgn bahasa safi sindrom hilang bahasa sbb encik imiginasi gi bercuti di parague....

(ak keliru sbnrnya sape watak utama dlm novel ni..coz after pengenalan tntg si safi ni...bab2 berikutnya lbyh bnyk mnceritakan tntg kwn baeknya IZA dn teman tapi mesranya HISHAM..)
ok...lupe plak... selain iza...si safi ni ada lg sorg kwn baek... name dy HELMI... walau kedua-dua insan ini adalah kwn baek safi namun mereka x pernah bersua aptah lg brkenalan antara sesama sendiri... (sile tumpukan perhatian..part ni sgt penting kerana akn effect pnceritaan sy slps ini..)

ok..lets start with si helmi...mamat ni kwn baek dgn safi sejak msuk Uni tapi knal da lame da...nk msk 8 thn.. safi ni di paksa mnjadi kwn baek kpd si helmi kerana mengikut helmi dgn hanya mengatakan "awak kenal safiah suhaimi? dy kwn baek saya" maka ramailah wanita2 yg akn memanndg helmi dgn sinar baru yg menganggap pastinya jejaka ini bkn shj tampan malah pandai mnjaga hati wanita al maklum kwn novelis... safi jugalah tmpat helmi mengadu nasib dn meminta nasihat atau sekadar berkongsi cerita tntg apa shj trutamanya yg berkaitan dgn love lifenye. bagi safi pula tiada ruginya mnjadikan helmi sbg rakan karib kerana sungguhpun mulutnya kadang2 sgt longkang (atau mengikut bahasa sam dlm adnan sempit, "mulut dgn kaki lbyh kurg sama..."OMG!!! sgt suka citer tu sbb ada sam...my mum likes him tu as an actor ae...bkn lbyh2)back 2 d novel...walaupn mulutnya sgt kuang asam, dy akn sentiasa mmbantu safi ketika bantuanya diperlukan (hmmm.... mcm familiar keadaan ni..knp ae? sape senario ni sgt cliche @ dejavu angakt tgn!!! sape x phm cliche dgn dejavu tu ape angkat kai :p) prsahabtn dyorg telus...xde agenda trsembunyi...mcm biase ak bace novel msti ending dy si safi ni end up dgn si helmi ni...but not this novel... (yup..sape yg da bwat andaian spt ak semasa mmbace review ak so far sila tarik blek andaian anda....keep ur mind positif dn percayalah pd ak coz ak da bace! kah!3)  
helmi minat dkat sorg gadis cina di pejabatnya bernama Jia huey ( kalo topek bace mesti dy gelak guling2 :P) helmi juga ada sorg kwn baek di offis brnama Danny yg sebngsa dgn  si jia huey ni... tnpa helmi sedari rupanya kwnnya itu sudahpun mnjalinkan hubungan dgn jia huey cuma xdpt restu mak ayah coz parents jia nak lelaki pure import dr china pilihan nenek mereka dr tnh bsr china.. (mak aih!! gile kerek) so si danny ni kira x memenuhi kritria parents jia... nk dijadikan cerita... psgn romeo juliet moden ni  tlh mmpergunakan helmi dgn strategu the better of two hell dgn jia berpura-pura minat dkat helmi dn danny pura2 xde hbgn dgn jia...so ble diprkenalkan helmi pd parents jia.. bapanya akn melenting kemudian merasakan danny lbyh layak jika di bndingkan dgn mamat brdarah belacan ini untuk princess mreka (gle jage status Quo...x prnah dgr pasal 1 ma'sia ke kluarga jia ni?)  
 mula2 ble kantoi helmi agak bengang namun akhirnya dy brstuju atas dasar ingin melihat kwn karibnya bahagia (ada lagi ke lelaki mcm ni kt dunia ni??? nk kenal ble?)



 next kita citer pasal iza plak ae... Iza ni kwn sjk skola... (xsilap ak la...ana kalo salah tlg komen ae..ak tau ko lg pakar tntg novel ni sbb ko katamkan jauh lbyh awal dr ak...) minah ni syok dkat sorg mamat dkat ofis dy...namanya HISHAM..mamat ni charming..bermulut tebu  tapi indicisive dlm love relationship(mksdnya x reti nk bwat keputusan yng btol yg brkaitan tntg chenta..oops! ae eh!! ada org trase ke??? sape mkn cili pndai2 la minum air bnyk2 ae..)slama 2 hisham lyn iza like sumone special...bile org brgossip x pula dibangkang namun x pula dia mgiakan...dasar lelaki stereotype...habis kecoh satu ofis mnggelar mereka sehati brdansa dn sebagainya...yg di lakukan dik jejeaka tu hanyalah senyum dan menimbulkan kekeliruan dlm jiwa wanita benama iza in... (wahai kaum adam..ingatlah bahawa kaum hawa ni mmg dilahirkan dgn sifat cpt perasan...jd dlm satu perhubungan jgn sekali-kali menimbulkan kekeliruan kerana prbuatan itu hanya akan mmbwatkan anda kehilangan seorg kwn dn mybbkan hati wanita itu terseksa, HONESTLY!!) so sbg wanita brjiwa wanita xkan la iza nk g ckp dkat helmi straight2 " ak ske ko" kn?? mestilah malu..kalo mamat tu kate " i anggap u kwn jek.." kn dah x tau cmne nk bersemuka lagi..dn yg lebih ditakuti adlah jika poersahabatan itu sndiri yh akn musnah... (sesungguhnya x ramai wanita yg  berkemampuan brckp straight pd guy yg dy minat mcm 2 walau se sikit mane pn minat dy... seorag wanita BIASENYA akn menyimpan rahsia itu dlm hati jek... kan??? kecuali beberapa manusia pelik dlm dunia ni spt....ehm...abaikan NVM...citer lama...) so slama 2 thn la iza brmain teka tki teka tekuk dgn hati dn perasaanya sndiri tntg relevenkah dirinya di hati hisham.... n out of d blue tetiba plak munculnya ELIZ rakan rapat zaman kanak2 hisham yg sgt HOT, krja dkt kedutaan amerika...meaning dy hot, pandai dn kaya...did i mention she was totally gorgeous..tahap drop dead... cun nak mampus... ye la minah pan-asia...sape x caer tgk... so si iza bila membndingkan dirinya dgn si eliz mula rasa trgugat, tergagap dn ter gege yg laen krn takuti dy sudah hilg seri di mata hisham stlh melihat eliz yg plg hampir dgn definisi smpurna itu... (ha!3x kurasakan terlalu bnyak kebetulan dlm citerni...ak nk readers tau yg ak sememangnya xde niat nk bwat sape2 trase ati..HONEST!!)

8 more days to go

 sok paper bio tapi ak ttp nk postig gak...
ag 8 hari jek ak kt KMJ ni....
ag 8 ari jek nak kacau abg gonjeng dkat kafe....
lg 8 ari jek nk tatap muke ana kt blek ak...
lg 8 ari jek nk mkn roti hotdog goreng umi....
lg 8 ari jek nk minum ice blended kt kafe c....
lg 8 ari jek nk menikmati pgcucian mata ptg2 kt blkh blok..
lg 8 ari jek nk mlalak lagu rock kapak dgn ahli2 c2.22
lg 8 ari jek nk cari gdh dgn yan..
lg 8 ari jek PSPM 2 ni...

LG  8 ARI JEK!!!!!!!!
(>_<)

yay!!! alredy 19

Alhamdulillah...jejak ak umur 19 thn....tmbh ag staun nk bramal... hopefully la....

ha!3x bday ni ak dpt 2 kek...... n i like both bery2 much...
mak kate xnk bg ak mkn kek nnt makin debab...
ak caye la.... sbb mmg ak sdar ak besor pun...tapi xkn la bday pn x dpt kn????
ak pn xde la mgharapkan ape2 pd ari in.....
tup2 jam 11 pg mak ak kol... "dek2 mak dtg ptg sket ae... hjn lbt la kat sini... kalu x reda maybe mak x jd dtg kot...."
ak pn dgn nada brsahj (kononnye..), "xpe2...adk x kisah lamak...."
di kejauhan sayup2 ak dgr suara mak ak, tanpa menyedari yg ak dpt mndgr prtuturanye..,"ae long..hbs kek bdk ni cmne?"
setelah meletak ganggang hatiku berbunga-bunga mennti ketibaan ibuku yg trcinta mmbawa kek yg ku idam2
KAH!3x

so ptg tu dlm hjn renyai2 mak ak pn dtg...adake pilih pot kt kafe...ramai la org nmpak... aduss... mlu gue....
itu juga brmksd ak trpksa mmbahagikan kek i2 kpd bnyk bahagian.... nsb baek mak ak beli yg 1 kilo... KAH!3x
dpt KFC skali....gle langgar pantang...

hmm... dalam kol 7 mlm ak pn naek blek dn mmbahagikn kek ak kpd beberapa bahagian.... 1 part untuk mz maya (mentor /fellow). 1 part untuk wan (eguana yg slalu lepak kt blek JPP kah!3x) 1 lg part untuk ekin (my praktikummate / scandle dlm class bi jek...) yg slebyhnye...ak, ana (bestfren),dn anis 2(rumate kesayangan) pulun smpai kenyang.....

bile dah kenyang,, tetibe ana tanye,, nk kek ag ke? ak rase mz maya dgn yan tgh g beli.. eeh... trkantoi sudah... nk x?
ak pn jwb dgn sng ati...org nk belikn terima jek la.... rezeki....
so ak pn menanti la saat 12 mlm untuk meraikan 'surprise' bday party ak plak...

yg hadir mlm i2:
anis2... ana... yan... miz maya...lola...leo..lulu... bubu. gary dn baby...
kek tiramisu...... WOW!!! mahal tu... makshih kengkawan...
siap dpt kad yg yan dok tanye kt ana.. "wei! ko da docorate blom?"

ha!3x top ten pgwish bday ak tahun ini adalah:
1. angah...
2. topek...my latest scandle
3. balqis...my not so little baby..
4. wan... hmm? nk ltk pe pn x tau..  HA! sila rujuk atas
5. ekin...
6. & seterusnya
da ramai sgt wish at da same time mase tu...ak pn x sure nk numbering cmne...

hadiah yg ak dpt taun ni.. :
kek 2 bijji... kad sekeping... aym berketul2. novel yg da lame ak rase nk beli... (dr rumate ku)
dn kasih syg berbakul-bakul! kah3x

konklusinya...THANX SEMUA...... syg lbyh.....

bio, reproduction, digestion , penanggal n sports day!

bile dok ngadap buku bio jek... biase la kalo x lentok...biol.....
2 mmg kebiasaan bgku..
buku bio ak 2 da naek lunyai da sbb pe?
sbb asal bukak je ak tetido.. pas2 mula la trcmpak sana sini

Kih!3x kelmarin stdy bab 7 bio...bab plg best stdy KOT..
REPRODUCTION
sambil2 tu ak ym la dgn classmate skola mnengan dulu c polan ni...
ana pn tanye... mamat ni rupa dy smne?
ak ckp la lbyh kurag wan tp xde body... (mksdku keding sbnrnye)
maka bermulalah kisah penanggal kami

Ana: kalo xde body ada pe? cm penanggal ke?
ak: haah! ada kpala n usus jek...

 serentak dgn i2 kdgaran bunyi riuh rndah dr atas
Ana: bunyi ape 2?
ak: penaggal la.... sape suruh ko sbot psl dyorg
Ana: asal bising sgt?
ak: dy bwat sports day kot....
Ana: acara pe? tarik tali? bising gle...
ak: tali mae nk dpt?
Ana: usus dy kn ada.......

maka kami pn gelak terguling2 mmbygkn keadaan si penanggal mengadakan tournament tarik tali..
bole anda bygkan?
jika boleh gelak ;la same....
lalu kami smbg penelahaan kami..
5 minit kemudian

ak:  lari dlm guni pn ok gak..
Ana: pe ko mrepek ni?
ak: x... penanggal tu... kalo g acara lari dlm guni pn ok gak..
Ana: knp plak?
ak : yela.. nk lari kn susah....usus trjuntai-juntai...kalo ada guni sng sket....

gelak tergolek-golek lg kami dgn bygn i2..

Ana: tapi bkn dyorg terbg ke? bwtpr nak lari?
ak: x berat ke trbg dgn usus tu? cm leceh jek..


tetibe kdgaran hilaian yg nyaring dr luar...
kami  trdiam....
jam sudh menunjukn jam 3 pg
apabila hilaian i2 reda pintu pula diketuk-ketuk tanpa henti
ak mmbranikn diri mmbuka pintu..
 "k.b... kami trkunci luar blek la... ada no ms Maya x?,"
* cerita ini separuh bnar separuh tipu. tgh bosan bace bio...otak jd biol*

Sempat Lagi......

My energy color is Purple

my favret color!!!!
Idealistic and full of spiritual power, (mcm dragon ball je bunyik..)
 you have one of the strongest and most influential energies. (ha!3x rakyat jelata dgrlah titah beta..)
With a strong intuitive and psychic ability though you may not know it, (yg ni tipu! ak mane psykik, psycho ada)
you have an effortless influence over those around you without them and most likely you even noticing. (korg trpengaruh ke dgn ak? bkn trbalik ke?biase la tu pengaruh rakan sebaya, sume ble bwat)
Every little change about you, be it emotionally or atmospherically will affect those around or closest to you. Few notice it - when people do start to notice, however, it makes them feel unsettled and unsure of you, so make sure to be careful with just how many things you change! (sesungguhnye ak mmg insan yg cpt brubh.. btol2 effect ke? x caye la.... ade yg takot nk kwn dgn ak ke?so far xde g kot.. ni pganalisa amk degree kt mane la ni... lulus ckp mkn kot... slh je tafsiran dy sal ak)
You have a very protective nature and often put others before you without thinking twice. Sometimes however you’ll find yourself questioning your actions and will try to change it - don’t. Not only are you selfless (to an extent), you’re most likely to be extremely empathic - maybe one of your friends is feeling low and they haven’t mentioned it? Doesn’t matter - something inside of you will click and tell you that something isn’t right. No matter what emotion they’re feeling, chances are you’ll feel it too and be able to carefully slip it out of them as to what’s going on. (yg ni ak stuju... sumtime la... smgat stia kwn de!!!!)
You’re also creative to the extreme; often you let yourself escape reality and create new thoughts, worlds and ideals for you to live by and start to hate what’s real and long for what you created yourself. (Yg ni ak stuju sesngt la!!! tapi isk3x bab 'creative' 2... malu la... kih!3x sjk ble ni?)
You’re a very passionate person who loves to feel inspired but when deprived of the things you love, you become difficult to handle, depressive and often self-abusive.(bunyi cm anak manja... ak ni manja pulak....)
Remember: you’re full of intensity, and although a lot of the time it’s something that people gravitate towards, it can also push people away and make them not want to get any closer. Take care to limit how extreme your feelings and actions are, otherwise you may end up feeling quite alone.(xnak!!!!)
Positive Qualities: Intuitive; empathic; open-minded; creative; somewhat selfless; compelling; mystifying; impulsive.(isk! malu i...)
Negative Qualities-:Tend to go to extremes; unbalanced; difficult; secretive; you can be quite manipulative though not always with cruel intentions; impulsive (not always a good thing!). (akan cube diperbaiki :p)

kelayakan dlm suatu perhubungan

Hmm............ rase cm nak berfalsafah mlm ni..
pndapat saya tntg tajuk di atas
IA BUKANLAH SATU ISU
x kira lelaki ataupun wanita pasti merasa gusar apabila merasakan diri tak standing pasangan/ org yg diminati.
mulala rase rendah diri, memprsoalkan siapa dirinya, rasa x sekufu, rase x sebulu dan mcm2 lagi la..
yg lagi mmbengangkan ialah golongan yg x brani pn nk cube sbb rase komfirm akn gagal kerana darjat yg jauh berbeza x kiralah dari segi harta, kecerdikan, pangkat, keturunan mahupun pengetahuan agama i2 pn ble jadi isu tau.. ish!3x plek btol manusia ni..
mane nak tau kalo x cube kan?
bkn ke kate2 pujangga mengatakan di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jaln..
so kalaupn btol x sekufu, ble diusahakan kn?perhubungan juga bermaksud saling melengkapkan diri kn? pe yang anda kurang psgn anda isikan... dn begitu juga sebliknye..
natijahnye, isu kami x setaraf atau sy x layak x ptt wujud

untuk mengukuhkan lagi hujah saya (ececeh, mcm debat plak)
Bukankah bagi umat Islam, Allah menjanjikan bahawasanye setiap yang kita usahakan pasti ada hasilnye
(btolkan ae kalo slh)

k, next kita tgk dari segi rasional@ logik akal..
sape yng tntukan kita layak @ x dlm satu prhubngan?
ada IUPAC mcm dlm kimia ke?
ada SI unit measurement mcm dl fzk ke?
ada distinctive characteristic mcm dlm bio ke?
xde kan....
so maknenye xde penetapan yg piawai untuk menentukan kte lyk ke x untk 1 perhubungan.
ble xde piawaian, mknenye x pyh di ambil kira
lantak ape org nak kate... lntk ape bisikan yng mghancorkn harapan dlm hati tu nak kate ape..
janji kite tau yg kita suka kat org 2 dgn jujurnya, ikhlasnya. n tulusnya..
belum cuba belum tau meyh...

lepas da cuba... kalo dapat ALHMDULILLAH
kalau x pasti ada hikmhnya... jodoh pertemuan di tgn TUHAN
sume bnda  trtulis di Lailatul Qadar
Hmm.............. mcm da kuar tjuk jek.
xpe la... name pun luahan hati.....
yg trase tu sori la ye.... xde niat (kot)
kih!3x

anuual dinner KMJ 09/10

ha! annual dinner dlm gelap di bwh hjn renyai....
bunyi cm trok kan but actually agak best la...
the performance and slide shoes n set up satge rocked walaupin x ramai yg nampak...
yg penting spirit la kan...
biasela ble da nak ber pisah... sume bnda jadi knagan...
suma org agak teruja bersiap... sampai AK pun trikut same...

mane taknya! beria rumate ak nak makeupkan ak mlm 2... tapi ak bagi dy bwat mate jek la...
kalo x... ak takot org x knal ak jek nnt........
ikutkan ati sbnrnye dah alang2 melaram nak gak pakai kebaya labuh kale hitam yg ada labuci tu... tapi  kakak ak x nak poskan............. ada hikmahnye kot... so redha je la...
maen aci redah tema 1 ma'sia ak paki jubah yg mak ak beli kt mekah..
msk ke?
ha lantak la....

TADAA!!!!!! hasil karya rumateku...

2 weeks notice (episod 3)

hari ni ak bace bnyk gile sampai x tau nak 2lis cmne..
ak citer yg best je la kot... or at least yg ak ingat la.....

pas hari keramat si jo merajuk ngan bat...
si bat cubalah pujuk..
dy punye caa...
pergh... cheezy gle
ala2 princess diary tu...
nk bg jo caer la gaknye..

mase 2.. jo on d way g library... trserempak dgn bat...
dahla tgh xde mood...
jmpe mamat muke slenga yg mmg dy tgh hot..
bntai bwat muke toya je la dy
dgn tgh cari buku yg yg nak kene pulg kat libry 2 tetibe hilang
honstly... a bad day 4 jo
si bat tanye pun di jwab sepatah-spatah
bat: nak gi libry?
jo: yup.
 lebih kurang cm2 la perbualan diorah

si jo hangin tol ble si bat buat cara x phm bahasa
dok ngeko jo ke hulu ke hilir masuk dlm libry, bwat kerja sblh dia, jo kuar pun dy ikut, nk lunch pn dy ikut
minah 2 dah nak bg bcckhand dah wak2 tu...

then mase duduk kat pondok nak mkn lunch.. x sempat si jo nak kuarkan bekal dy... a box of pizza di sua ke mukanya..
mula2 si jo ragu2 gak la nak amek... tapi last2 dy amek gak...
ble dy bukak... trtulis di atas pizza tu... 'bat says sorry'
 x semena-mena rase marah dlm hati si jo tros hilang dan diganti gelak ketawa yng tahap cipan.....
or so it was described in d novel lah..

so hubungan diorg kembali pd asal..
tak lame slps i2..
diorg blek ma'sia 4 d summer holidays..
tetiba 'Along' yg dinanti kn i2 x dtg menjemput..
diterangkn di si2 krn seorh pompuan tapi x plak ckp sape...
yg pasti bkn krn jo la... pompuan laen..
awek dy kot..
tp adk bradik along x stuju..


dlm mase summer tu..
ada beberapa hari ana tinggal kt rumah en. latfy (ayah along)
along srh jage nina (adik bongsunye) yg kene food poisoning
so minah 2 pun jagela...
janji mlm 1st tu nak bwk si nina g klinik...
tapi smpai mlm2 bute x smpai2 lg si  along tu..
ble kol..ble plak si mamat tu kate tgh dinner..
brapi je jo dlm hati...
dinner ag penting dr adik? buang trbiat ke ape along ni
so jo bwat keputusan mintk kunci kreta dr akak nina (nana, anak ke 3)
dn drive sndri nina ke klinik

sekepulanganya ke rumah brsama nana dan nina
dy marahi oleh along krn x tunggu dy...
jo pn marah gak coz along cm x brtanggungjwb jek mlm tu..
bkn seperti along yg dikenalinya sblm ini

so mlm tu msg2 tdo dlm keadaan marah
ble pg tiba..
\minah tu diserang migrain
dn mamat tu diserang dan di belebggu rasae bersalah..
trn je tangga
kedebgaran mcm ada worl war 2 kt dapur..
xpernah sblm ini di liht along si jo mask sebegi2 bising
pas2 plak nmpak muka si jo pucat..
lgla dy risau....
disuruhnya jo pass over masak kat dy tp sebolehnya si jo menentang..

pas2 aadk2 along pn dtg join kat dapur
dan ketika mereka bergurau senda di dapur....
telefon jo pn brbunyi..
apeh (anak ke2) melihat skrin, mengerutkan dahi.. lalu mengangkat telefon dgn berkta:
'hello? ya, ni adik ipar dia.. nak ckp ngan dy ke? jap eh'
HAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHA!
ak gelak guling2 mate juling time bc bnda ni..
rupenye bat yg kol...
si apeh dah cuak dah takot bakal kak ipar kene kebas org...

sampai c2 la dulu pncritaan smula ak...
esk masih ada Insya-Allah

epilog (harga sekeping hati)

Cinta yang indah pasti bersisir di sebalik awan. Umpama pelangi, sering membuat hati teruja biarpun ia Cuma satu ilusi. Cantik dipandang, tidak mungkin dapat di pegang. Itukah namanya cinta? Atau itukah mainan perasaan seorang insan?

            ‘ Ya Allah, aku sudah tidk tahu kepada siapa aku patut mengadu. Kepada KAU aku berpaling, kepada KAU aku aku berserah. Ya Allah, ENGKAU yang Maha Agumg lagi Maha Memahami, aku pasrah segala-galanya. Jika ini suratannya, aku mohon agar ak diberikan kekuatan.’

merawat hati duka lara 3

last step:

bila hati sayu, sedih dan gundah gulana, tadah lah tgn mu dan pohon lah padaNYA.
sesungguhnya dia Maha Mengetahui dan Maha Mengasihani...

Al-Baqarah: 216

...boleh jadi kamu mebenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu;Allah Maha Mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.

setelah mendalaminya akhirnya ku jumpa ketanangan dan mampu kurhedai apa jua yang berlaku..

Alhamdullillah..................

2 weeks notice (cont. episod 2)

ni nk citer pasal d novel dat im reading so hari ni bz giler so x sempat nak bace bnyak sngt la....

seperti yg dijagka... hubungan jebat a.k.a bat dan ana a.k.a jo semakin rapat
mereka ada lab bersama so sering la juga brtemu...
mula2 time lab jek... pas2 lunch sama2 b4 lab 2 coz diorg berdua jek malaysians dlm lab 2.... nk lepak ngan sape ag kan?
n during those lunches... ada satu tradisi baru...
diorg tiap2 minggu bwart petndgan iron chef to deterrmine which one is d better cook
mule2  mamat 2 masak steak n kidney pie, next week minah 2 balas choc cake.. si bat bantai kate dy ble bwat ag bes n tr bukti bnar
minah tu cabar lagi, bat bwat pizza berbalas lasagne oleh jo
di balas dgn chicken pie dr bat lalu ditangkis dgn macroni bakar oleh jo
bat tros smash ngan roti jala dan akhirnya jo angkat bendera putih
(yg ak plek asal dlm bnyk2 food diorg bwat 1 jek maskn mlayu? cbe la si jo bwat laksa johor ke? lontong ke? bihun sup ke? kn sdap jugak...)

pas2 time raya adalah kebiasaan untuk mnghabskn mase brsama-sama bg mereka yg di perantauan...
si jo br dressup sket.. dah ternganga si bat..
tgk ats bwh ats bwh.. siap cm nak terkeluar biji mata
jo ape ag.. xsdap duduk la.. ingat mamat bat dah hilg akal tgk dy cm x pernah tgk pompuan
si bat siap pesan.. pakaila baju krg tiap2 hari!
mak aih.... mcm dh lupe jek dkt tun teja dy yg ada kat liverpool si jebat ni
dah jelas trbukti yg dy dh mula ada hati kt hang li jo (hahahah! ni term yg diorg guna... bkn ak cipta. ROSAK sejarah ak yng mmg kero ini.. ROSAK!)

a few weeks after that... ada la minah 2 kol d night b4 lab nak tanye soalan...
tup2 si bat tgh g clubbing.. ble dgr jek mamat 2 kt mane.. jo tros ltak ganggang
d next day pe ag... dpt lecture tmbhn la dr jo
entah kenapa... bat rase kate2  si jo begitu pahit untuk ditelan
walaupun kata2 yg sama pernah diluahkan oleh rakan serumahnya si fakhrul.
ble plak dy layan nasihat si fakhrul sm angin lalu tp ble si jo nasihat siap emo..
lalu terkeluar la kate2 kasr dn kesat..
si jo lantas membawa diri ke rumah penginpannya... entah knape dirasakn sebak di dada...
si bat nyesal lalu bwatkan peach cobbler untk jo
(part ni ak geram.... peach cobbler tu jo pnh bwat untuk Along so ada sentimental value la kt peach cobbler 2 antara diorg.. yg si hlovate ni nak wjdkn bond lalu bnda yg sama antara jo ngan bat pe hal? pilihla food laen)

after that.. minah 2 diserang migrane lalu ditelan nye mcm2 ubat...
si jo ni kalau kene migrane mmg tros otc...
cuak housemate dy tgk..ingtkn dy dah msk destruction mode ke hape....

through the whole time..bkn la xde muncul langsung watak si Along ni....
ada tp cm kt bckground jek la....
skadar slalu kol, and hantar parcel isi kueh raya..... bnda2 cm2 la..
xde tindakan drastik la...

sampai c2 jek ak bace so far...
yg mengikuti perkmbgan cerita ini melalui ak harap bersabar
Insya-Allah esk ak update ag.... cuti la katakan...

rentetan hati seorg insan

semakin ak meniti hari di bumi yg sementara ini, semakin kurasakn dunia ini penuh dgn tipu daya lalu ku rasa hiba. tak sanggup rasenye untuk meniti hari2 yg mendatg kerana ku rasakn iman didada x cukup tebal nak mengharung onak duri dan dugaan yg diberikan olehNYA. walaupun ku tahu Allah hanya akan memberikan cubaan yg pasti mampu diharungi oleh hambanya ini, sesungguhnya Allah i2 maha mengetahui. namun, x dpt ku nafikan kekadg rasa berat untk dipikul bahu ini..

sesungguhnya ak insan kekurangan, penuh dgn ketidak sempurnaan.....

berkali-kali ku diduga dgn kesedihan...
berkali jua ak diduga dgn kesenagan......

di sebalik setiap kesedihan i2 ada hikmahnya....
dan setiap pengalaman i2 mematangkan ak...
walaupn bnar i2 hakikatnye x bermak na lebih senag untuk ak mengharunginya...
di sebalik setiap kejadian pasti ada hikmahnya
i2 lah yg ku katakn pd driku bagi mengubat lara di hati

pengubat hatiku hanyalah kalam2 Allah......
peghilang kesunyian hanyalah teman2 di sisi...
penawar kebosanan hanyalah buku2 cerita yg membawaku ke serata dunia tanpa perlu meninggalkan walau setapak dr rumahku

bwat psiko test ag hari ni..

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical.(*cough2x* ye la 2.....bkn ak ni otc ke? ak rase kwn2 ak slalu ckp ak ni bengong... sensible ke 2?) They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest...(lg menipu! diorg ni lulus ke x degree psikology? ak ni la insan paling bongkak kt KMJ,ego ak menggunung tau x... smpai pengarang jantung mintk clash pun ak bawt dono jek *sniff2x* ish... isu sensitif ni)Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. (1st part yes betol... ak mmg sngt berat mulut except time ak nervous, kalo time 2... pergh sume rahsia negara ble kuar. 2npart 2... ak pn x sure..hopefully true la) Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

(HAHAHAHAH! ni penemuan br bg ak... so jgn korg brani bwat ak marah...ade phm????)

sapakah ak sbnrnya.... ;p

ak ni mmg,blr kt cuti..


2 bnda wjb bwat

story book kebe bace... n of course surf d net

ak ni minat psycology n personaliti tp mak ak x bg amek jd major.. so jd hobi jek la..

bahan xperimen: diri sendiri

methadology: mengenali diri sendiri melalui personaliti quizzes



so, kuiz yg ak bwat kat Quizilla hari ni agak menarik. mengikut hasil ujian ak ni gothik. la pulak??? dulu bwat punk *LOL* ni kalau mak ak tgk geleng2,along ak tgk angguk2.. dr dulu g dy ckp ak goth.

keputusan yg dipaparkan: d sad teen

ye jek?

kalau nak bwat rumusan Kertas 2 BM PMR,

huraian yg diproleh dr quiz trsebt merumuskn bhw cik ct nabilah syuhada adalah sorng remaja yg murung n pesimis n parenoid (gelak smpai jth katil ak bace part ni..ingat dh ckp optimis dah. kalau x xkan x sampai sminggu ayh ak meninggal ak ble g bertandg story telling wakil mersing? ble rapat ngan akak yg pnah lempg ak dulu2 n bnyak nyusahkn ak skarang?ble ngam dgn mak ak yg overprotective?)

dikatakan juga personoliti cik ada niadalah satu dimensi (ak sendiri x ble bayang kalau 'berdimensi 2 cmne.. cm Jaws kt TV 3 dulu kot) dn mengelirukan (huh? X ckp bndul ag ke ak ni??). dalam kuiz itu juga mengatakan cik ada telah bosan dgn rentak hidupnye sekrgdn impikan kehidupan yg lbih menarik

yang paling kentang.....ni next part ni..

ak sering menyangka tiada sape yng fhm diriku ini walaupun famly n friends. Sbnrnya diorg phm just x tau nk ckp cmne..sbb takot trsalah ckp n ak akn mnjauhkan diri. Menurut quiz 2 ak org yg jenis cm2!!!!

Ak ras bertntgn 180 drjah coz slalu jek org laen bg nasihat walaupun jarang dminta

N i can xpress myself 2 other people, n i accept their opinion what... rasenye la....ak ni jenis x dgr ckp ke? Degil sngt ke?

Sudah gaharu cendana pula, sudah thu bertanye pula! (Disebabkan rumusan ini diakhiri dhn pantun, calon hanya layak menerima markah ikhsan kerana tidak menepati format sebuah rumusan)

2 weeks notice..

ni bkn notice brenti kerja or watever..
ni notice tinggal 2 minggu jek sblm nak stat struggle blek
so cm biase, every holiday or at least my holiday, mesti kene ada story book..
this time i choose 5 tahun 5 bulan by hlovate
sng citer ak ni mmg minat gle la kt penulis ni coz dy capture dunia moden & i like ana's character, pandai, sopan dgn org tua, rock dgn org muda, pndai jage diri, pndai masak, pndai kemas rumah...
HAHAHAHAhHAHAhahA... best tol citer ni...

 name character dy Johana
citer pasal bdk yg dah go through persediaan medic under MARA...
2nggu hasil interview nak fly dah..kerja 3 bln kat rumah org kaya nak cari duet
minah ni bknla ank org miskin, opposite actually.. tp very down to earth n modest
mane xnye, otak ada, rupe ada... sanggup jd org gaji kat rmh org.. huhuhu. if it was me.. i would not have the guts...takot tuan rumah dok kuar msk ospital makn mskn ak..
ye ke? slame ni family ak mkn ok jek? entahla... back 2 d story

so dy kerja kt rmh tu 3 bln.... jage mkn minum ank2 org tua 2...
diorg sume keliru sbb dressing minah ni ala2 dara pingitan tp general knowledge dy pergh..
ank 2nd dia ternganga tgk si ana ni bwat addmath cm mkn kcg goreng & trangkan circulatory sistem cm citer blek citer sin chan...
during that 3 months mmg dy xde niat la nak g tau family 2 yng dy ni sbnrnye medic undergraduate

tup2 mase lps interview trsermpak lak ngan si Along...
ank slg famly majikan lanii
mamat ni mmg srabut sket...
slalu ganggu minah ni masak.. dok arah2 i2 dan ini...
milo tmbh honey la... sup masin la....
air tawar la....
sng kate prangai mmg mintk backhand la...
menggrutu je minah 2 layan
tp biase la... novel melayu...
mase mamat 2 dmam trok minah 2 jage smpai jangkit kat dy
minah 2 overwork smpai pngsan n mamat tu la yang dokong g klinik... mlm2 bute...
caring tahap gaban2...

tp mase mncemburui mreka... hahaha
minah 2 fly g scotland and during orientasi
jmpe mamat name Jebat Iskandar
nme dy xle thn seyh...
siap 1 family hang 5 bersaudar....
tuah zulkarnain, lekirbadiuzzaman, lekiu luqman, kasturi khushairi
mcm familiar jek bile sebut pasl 5 bersaudara ni knpe ek?

smpai c2 jek ak bace so far..
really intresting story...
rase cm dkat d hati jekk
i wiil be sure to get u posted pasal perkembgn story ni....
my bet is that dy dgn 'Alomg' 2....
tp tgk la nanti........ we'll c how d story goes

WARNING:
1.HANNA, ONCE KO BACE POST NI... JGN PIKIR AK PERLI KO PLAK SAL CHARACTER ANA 
   2.... O.K ADA LA SKET2... BUT D STORY IS REALLY GREAT, BIASELA HLOVATE MMG 
   GEMPAK
2.WAN...... KO NYE SENGIH 2.... AK BLE NMPAK SMPAI CNI KO TAU X??????? :P