HAppY 2010....

 may this year be batter than b4...

PILIHAN KOD PROGRAM PENGAJIAN IPTA



Pilihan 1: EM00 DOKTOR PERUBATAN UiTM


Pilihan 2: MF00 FARMASI (KEPUJIAN) UM


Pilihan 3: ED00 PEMBEDAHAN PERGIGIAN UiTM


Pilihan 4: KF00 FARMASI UKM


Pilihan 5: MS09 SAINS (STATISTIK) UM


Pilihan 6: KS09 SAINS (STATISTIK) UKM


Pilihan 7: EF00 FARMASI UiTM


Pilihan 8: BK01 SARJANA MUDA KEJURUTERAAN AWAM DENGAN KEPUJIAN UTHM

gile kentang pilihan ak.......
budget terer
course sume nk yg power2

but still 2 all y fwenz...
doakan ak x kene lelong eh..

upgrade pepatah lama

org dulu2 kate.....
org memberi kita merasa
org berbudi kita berbahasa
bila org berahsia kita merana
huhuhuhuuuhu ;p
life's like that lorh....

merawat hati yg duka lara 2

STEP 2:
orang kate.... jagn bawat kat org pe yg kita xnak org laen bwat kat kite
so maybe d hurt i'm feling right now sbb pe yg ak bawat kat sorg insan ni suatu mase dulu (form2 n 3)
if satu hari awk jumpe blog saye ni la kan & i hope u do....
di sini saya ingin memohon menyusun sepulah jari memohon maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki
 saya tahu saya banyak bwat awk rase brslh walaupn sy tau some of d keslhn dtg dr sy.....
sume kesakitan, keperitan n kesedihan yg disebabkan oleh sy, sy harap awk ble maafkan

thnx coz still contct ngan sy
sstgh org maybe xkn slesa cntct nagn org yg hancorkan hati dia
thnx alot 4 being a grate guy
 sy ni memang trok kan orgnya?
sorie 4 everything...
tulus ikhlas dari hati...

merawat hati yg duka lara

STEP 1:
kini ak sedar yang ak perlu redha dgn stiap yg berlaku coz Allah kate stiap yg berlaku i2 ada hikmahnye
so maybe just ak jek kot yg x nmpak ag hikmahnye ape...
 redha x bermakna perit di hati dah kurang or sedih dah surut
 cume bleh kawal supaya org skeliling x risau....

ak sedar siapa diriku ini insan lemah yg tidak smpurna n serba kekurangan
 ak doakan dia bahagia dgn keputusannya
honstly, if inilah yg dia rase d best 4 him, then lat it be la......
 act, ak doakn dia bahagia no matter what happens...
nak x nak he is d guy that i gave my haert to kann.....

and furthermore....
regarding his advice.. btol jugak
maybe kalau ak focus really hard i can succeed more in my studies
 Insya-Allah

pohon maaf

walaupun ak tau 2 @3 kerat jek yg bace... (wan, ekin, nad...) tapi nak mintk maaf sbb post ak  yg sblm ni in English... biaselah prg tgh EMO.....

NEVER AGAIN

i used to think that when they said that first love never have a happy ending that it was all just a load of crap. i was always so proud of my relationship with THAT GUY.... how we were really good friends aside from being a couple, how our relationship developed from being the best of friends to well, as i'm sure you already figured out by ow, more than friends......how we both know each other inside and out and what was i was most proud was our long 5 year acquaintance.......
          And *GASP!!* as cliche' as it sounds what those people said was actually true...... i guessed i could say that i saw it coming. there are all those signs popping out giving me a heads up and of course like any sad love story, i ignored all of them. the wired questions on how we were, the "i'm buzy" and "let me get back to you l8tr" and the constantly agonizingly not picking up the phone for 3 whole weeks!
            yup! i saw it coming alright, but that doesn't mean that it hurt less. it was so eazy for him to end our relationship saying that he was not ready for that kind of relationship*WTF!* we've been officially 2gether for more than a year & he says that to me now? yeah, that makes perfect sense alright.
             the thing that hurt the most is that he said that, i quote,"boleh x kalo kita just brkwn rapat & bkn 'brkapel' wlaupn kita bkn mcm kaple laen"notice the highlighted text? to me him saying that means that he is not just ending the relationship, its denying me any right to claim that we ever had a 'relationship'.  saying that even though we did became a couple it never felt like it. WOW!  that's going to scar 4 a long time, eternity noe that i think about it...... even if he did say that he still wanted to be good friends. yeah! like i'll ever walk down THAT road again.
                 but i do have to thank him i guess for doing this to me in the midst of the hactic study schedule with what the classes and tutorials and quizzes isntead of doing it to me when i'm at the comfort of my home. i swear to god i don't want my family to see what state i'm in right now. they already have their own fair share in their plates & seeing me like this i'm sure brings no good at all!!!! i do not wish to add to their already mountain high problems..... i'm sure i'll be able to get back up again... ONE DAY! maybe not so short in d future.......
                  but i do wished he called, not bcoz i want 2 beg, i've alraedy lost 1/2 my dignity when he dumped me, i won't be loosing the other 1/2 begging him to stay by me nor is it bcoz i want any reason bcoz no reason would be good enough to justfy it. i just wished that i could hear his voice for the last time coz  i'll sure as hell won't be contacting him for at least a year, I THINK.... and it always seemed that he would call if he were to end the relationship, a more gentle way, more subtle, more how i wished he did it..... not through a simple text message.
                     to all my mistakes, misteps, miscalculation, my good side, my bad side, my appeal, what appeals to me, my shortcoming, to all that has brought me this aching inside taht cannot be imagined the degree of hurt & how i wish it would hurt like when my bones broke  or that i could bleed it out and get it over with in a short period of time. to all of that and many more, i say, NEVER AGAIN WILL MY HEART HURT LIKE THIS.