angan2? cita2? cinta2?

looking back, i think i realized that i never had what you can really call ambition
ambition is when you have a target and have the courage and will power to actually go after that target
then and only then can it be called an ambition..
an ambition does not change easily and it is not affected by other unnecessary and especially unrealistic factors..

i used to think that me wanting to be a dr is my ambition..
but i realise now that it was only my dream..
i never had the guts, the courage, the will power and especially the brain to actually pursue that to make it my ambition..
then..though i know that it is nobody's fault that that it only stayed a dream, i put the blame on others and such which is a very childish things to do
not only that i felt a ragging jealousy towards others that did manage to make it their ambition and are now taking their MBBH
very immature now i realize
coming of age i guess i sensed that i take life into a different prospective
i need to be more mature and at the same time i need to enjoy life to the fullest
live up to my blog's name
i laugh.i love. i live

i have to fully accept the fact that I'm not fit to become a medical Dr. but maybe i can still make it in other fields..especially the field I'm venturing in right now..
a world full of numbers..and i find comfort in those numbers..
and infinities of numbers..
i have a new life plan to be implemented...
lets try to get ANC for stats o.k guys!!
i really need it in order to pursue my goal further
I'm really hoping for masters by 2015
insya-Allah

talking of infinities, lets venture into my love life
so i had a few rough ones..& there was once or twice that i thought that i had just about enough of love
well let me just say that i don't think that anymore
yes..as you might have guessed, I'm not single (eh! tjuk cter r!)
this time i really can't tell you who it is..it is our wish to make it lo key until we are AT LEAST engaged, preferably only AFTER marriage is what he said.. and that HOPEFULLY I would rather that IT be sooner (Like when I'm 23.. :P) rather then later
and for those who might be worried as why im soo secretive about this one..
stop worrying..he's NOT one of my ex's..
especially not HIM
he's a new guy..
that most of you don't know..

i think i have blabbered enough for now
ha3..don't you think so too?
until next time guys..
wish me well. wish me love.wish me luck(^^,)y